Prince Harry Says Therapy Helped With Royal Life Trauma: ‘I don’t want to be here’

May 13, 2021

By Kana Ruhalter

Prince Harry of the British Royal Family sat down with Dax Shepard recently to share how the media’s exploitative nature hurt him and his wife, Meghan. People Magazine reports that in the newest Armchair Expert podcast episode, hosted by Shepard and co-host Monica Padman, Harry spoke candidly about mental health and his desire to leave the Firm years ago. 

The Duke of Sussex, 36, detailed previously untold stories about his old life in London and the early stages of his relationship with Meghan Markle. 

"The first time Meghan and I met up for her to come and stay with me, we met up in a supermarket in London, pretending we didn't know each other, texting each other from the other side of the aisles," Harry said. "There's people looking at me, giving me all these weird looks, and coming up to me and saying 'hi.' "

Shepard asked Harry to explain what it was like to be in such a small percentage of the population that is “watched by millions,” referencing the highly speculative and invasive nature of the British tabloids. Harry described it as a “mix between The Truman Show and living in a zoo.

"It's the job, right? Grin and bear it. Get on with it. I was in my early 20s, and I was thinking I don't want this job, I don't want to be here. I don't want to be doing this," he said. "Look what it did to my mum. How am I ever going to settle down and have a wife and family when I know it's going to happen again?"

The Prince said Meghan played a prominent role in his decision to seek therapy, making all the difference. 

"And then once I started doing therapy, it was like the bubble was burst. I plucked my head out of the sand and gave it a good shake-off, and I was like, You're in this position of privilege, stop complaining and stop thinking you want something different — make this different — because you can't get out. How are you going to do these things differently? How are you going to make your mum proud and use this platform to really affect change?"